AN OPEN LETTER

I have been very angry lately. So much so that I have taken bouts of time away just to keep from erupting. There is nothing wrong with anger, or being angry, but when it consumes you to the point you feel you may explode and beat the shit out of idiots around you, you give yourself a time out. Or at least I do.

The most common cause for my frustration and anger has been idiots. Idiots, morons, assholes, numbnuts, you get the picture. I cannot stand the self righteous posturing and spewing of hatred and hypocrisy that has consumed our media these past months.

At every turn, some Fox news twerp is spouting slanted bullshit stats or facts (however fact is not something a Fox employee has ever met) as they try to sway the nation toward good Christian conservatism. Never mind that conservative politics and true Christianity cancel each other out. They cannot co-exist. They are too opposite. It is matter and anti-matter, for fellow geeks out there.

Between the obviously biased and bought off fake news asshats and the political morons we have out there, constantly spewing hate and trying to keep us all so riled up we can't think without going into a rage, as our nation weakens and falls apart, as these bastards pick up their bribes and payoffs, I feel sicker and angrier until I think my head will pop.

They do this to us in attempt to control us. If we are trying to tear each other apart then maybe, just maybe, we won't see them for the dirty, cowardly thieves that are destroying our country. Not to mention fucking up other nations under our flags of truce and good neighbors. Bullshit!

Awhile back, I received a letter from my Congressman, urging me to keep supporting the good cause, help keep the party strong. This was a GOP asshat and I laughed so hard I hurt, then the anger rose up. This bastard sent out a letter marked urgent, then demanded I answer a questionaire under penalty of some sort or the other. Then the SOB called my unlisted number to mooch money. I told them NO and hung up on them. They called again. I have never given the GOP a cent, nor will I ever. Have they not stolen enough from me already? Have they not ignored my voice? Have these wrinkled old farts not done enough damage already? To ALL of us?

As a political party, they are in their death throes, thank all the Gods! When you are so delusional that you become the party of rape should be downgraded to a misdemeanor, that if a child fights back against an attacker she is suddenly the aggressor, then what the hell can you offer me? I am a woman, a polytheistic Pagan, not one of your pseudo-Christian republican twats. I have a brain, I can think for myself. I do not need a man to tell me what to do or to think. I have been in a solid, good relationship with the same person for nearly twenty years. We work together as a team, we support and protect and love each other. What can these bozos offer either of us? They want to strip away all the support nets for the most fragile in our nation, while raking in huge paychecks, contributions, fees and yes, bribes.

I don't need some old guy who is soooo ancient he looks more like the tootsie roll tootsie pop turtle than a man, telling me that if I get raped and wind up pregnant it is my own fault and I cannot abort the fetus. Not while he and his cohorts are forcing us to pay for their Cadillac health care (damn entitlement whores they are!) and are getting free Viagra to keep up their limp dicks for the boys they claim to not be interested in.

These bastards are pushing NRA and guns on us, while trying to lessen the gun control laws that are in place.  They seem to think this will endear them to people, but people who have lost loved ones over shootings by crazy folks with no business owning guns are not okay with this. It is pretty obvious that lobbyists and exchanges of money--very large sums of money-- are behind this idiocy.

Every time of these legalized criminals speaks of family values, traditional values, God or love of God, I try hard not to throw up. These people know nothing of God. They profess to being Christian but hold none of Christ's teaching to heart. They are the wolves in sheep's clothing come to devour us all. They are crazed with greed, gluttony, lust, sloth, wrath, pride and envy. Many have violated the Ten Commandments just as easily as they have violated our Constitution. They claim to love this nation, yet ship our jobs to China. They say they care for the poor and hungry as they take food from the mouths of the truly hungry. All the while they are getting free meals, free health care, free paid vacations, paid sick days, etc., These are our welfare whores, our entitlement junkies. How dare they turn their nose up at the 47%? Who the fuck do they think they are? Posturing and preening with their spray on cheetos tans and their fancy suits and smug ass smirks? Without us, they would have exactly what they deserve: NOTHING!

So they are a part of what makes me so angry that I am fighting against vomiting my guts up as I struggle to not beat the shit out of them or their stupid flunkies. Every day I hear some dick weasel bitching about "Obummer" I want to bury my steeltoed work boot up his ass. We were all told honor the Bush-whacker, respect the Bush-whacker and his questionably sane Cheney. It did not matter that they committed atrocities or war crimes or violated the laws of this land. They were playing God in the White House and destroying our nation. A truer evil has never lived in the White House than those two godless soulless morons. But now, at every turn the very people demanding respect for Bush's position shit on our duly elected president, attacking and insulting and slandering. They claim to be Christians but they are not. They too are soulless, godless morons bleating out what their masters tell them to bleat.

Another thing that stirs up the anger are the idiots that keep pushing for prayer in schools and the pledge of allegiance. I have no problem if someone wishes to pray, but do not force everyone to join you in your prayer. It is wrong! It is un-Constitutional. It is also immoral and unethical. As for the pledge, I laugh. That damn thing was a campaign to sell flags! It is not real, it is not part of any government or patriotic anything. It is as meaningful as pledging to your Swiffer.

While on the topic of prayer and religion, did you know that we pagans are lumped in with Satanists? That we do not get tax breaks Christians do? That as long as we are not recognized by a tax exempt status we are considered not real? That we do not technically exist? That Christians (or politicians pretending to be) are stealing our rights as we speak? While I personally do not need tax exempt status, as my spirituality cannot be bought or sold, I still rankle at the slight. Especially as former Pres. Reagan violated the Constitution while in office by declaring (was it 1984 or 1985) as year of the Bible? That he claimed the Bible was the word of God and that was that. What an idiot. The Bible has seen more rewrites than a Hollywood script! Also Jesse Helms was the asshole lumping us in with Satanists. We don't even believe in Satan! He is purely a Christian construct and concept.

Lies We Are Told: Lie # 1:Your Heritage

I can clearly remember being told to lie about my race, my ethnicity if you will, at a very young age. As a small child in the 60's my mother used to remind me to never mention that I was part German. It was hammered in to my head that if I said a word about my German heritage I could be tortured or killed. I was told to always cling to my Irish roots and flat out deny my German ancestry. As a child I felt that I was being asked to do something terribly wrong. The church that I was occasionally dragged to said lying was wrong, it was a sin. But I was told to lie, to lie lie lie in spite of it.

At the time we were in Fort Smith, Arkansas, and I was told that anti-German sentiment was rampant (of course my mother was far more crude with her wording) but it scared me. Because of something I did not understand as a toddler or slightly older than a toddler, I could be hurt badly. Or killed.

For good measure I was always told to omit that we had black ties as well. African American was not a common term back then. Negro and then black were the more common terms. Again, I did not see the harm. Why was I being asked to lie? To hide a part of who I was? I saw no difference in black or white; I saw no one facet of my lineage as better or worse than any other. It was confusing and hurtful. I was being told that I should feel shame for something that was not shameful, and guilt for something that had no guilt.

That feeling of having to hide followed me through the years, it is still with me today in part due to the behavior I was forced to adhere to and then the after effects of the truth coming out.

One day, as I was out swimming with friends in a secluded pond, we met an older couple who remarked on my obvious German blood. I automatically threw out that I was Irish. They laughed and said Yes, but the German shows more. The eyes, the hair, the skin---you are so obviously German! At the ripe old age of 17 I nearly panicked. The older couple told me to not worry. They said they understood my mother's fear, as in the 60's there was still pockets of anti-German haters who were a threat. Especially in less cultured areas of the country.

It was a breath of fresh air. I could admit my German roots and not be struck down dead. Over time, I discovered that so many people out there easily noted the difference between German and Nazi. As I had nothing to do with the party of hate or oppression, I was okay.

For the record, I am not ashamed of any aspect of my heritage or being. I figure my ancestors found someone to love and have a family with and their race or color was truly irrelevant. As for anyone curious on the matter, here goes! I am Irish, German, English, (possiblt\y Scottish), Native American (Cherokee, Choctaw, Blackfoot, Mohawk) African American, Black Dutch and Dutch. I'm very mixed. I am an American woman. I am unique. I am me. There is not a damn thing wrong with that.